I was being a stalker if you want to say so. I went out of my way to find out some truth that has been bothering me lately. It was such an relief knowing that he’s okay and well. Silly me thought he’s dead. I guess this was just his polite way to say NO to me. I accept it willingly. Because learning that there was nothing bad happened to him brought me more peace than accepting the fact that I was dumped again.
Sadly there goes the inconvenient truth–I was dumped. However, God has granted my prayer! I didn’t care much about whether I came back to single life again or whether there would be a chance. As long as he’s safe, I’m well satisfied indeed. This is not my bitter comment. I’m deeply deeply thankful for this. More so, my mind is at peace; I’m at peace with myself. It’s time to move on again. This time I can smile and step forward. Lord, thank you!
Oh btw, the process of stalking and finding the inconvenient truth was indeed humiliating. One thing I’ve learned out of this, never pursue a guy EVER! Chasing after a guy will lead completely dignity loss, no kidding gals! I need to learn to patiently wait, despite the painful and agonizing process. It’s better to wait than to rub yourself into their faces and learn the inconvenient truth “I’m just not that into you”. Sometimes, they do tell you straightforward, but alot of time they avoid you like my case. I placed alot of faith in this guy, but Ha he failed me again just like all the other ones. I considered this a precious lesson of life, and on top of that patience is a virtue. Clearly, losing myself to chase a guy is not very virtue-displaying.
