I must say yes to this question. I am even amazed at my thoughts. Yesterday I just said I would not think of this matter, but lo and behold, I was trying to apply a job at the city where he works. How ridiculous is that! I am making a move AGAIN!!!!! This should not happen. I can’t believe how I was reminded of him in and out of the house all day long. He wsas in our conversation often, and the more I try to kick him out of my thoughts, the more I think of him. I hate myself. I must be guy-deprived for too long. And having no job definitely makes it worse.
At the same time, I know in my heart that he is not the type I like, not even close, to name a few, his height, age, ethnicity etc. I have feeling for him? You must be kidding me!!!
Anyhow, there are alot of things to do right now, applying for school, jobs, studying, reading, planning out future etc. From tomorrow, he’s out. This time, I can not approach to a guy first. I have too many failing experiences in terms of relationship, and I don’t need to add another one to it. Besides, I know a couple girls who will be more suitable to him than I am. If this is what he desires, let him approach me first, let him pursue me first. I don’t like him, probably just feel like an older brother-ish.
